If I have 1 buck for every 'should have's I have,
I'll be rich.

I promised myself and I'm going to keep that promise. I am going to take it off and put it in the box. I am going to do what you want me to. But at this moment, I need someone to be there for me. For some reason, wearing it, playing with it calms me down. So don't feel guilty. I'm alright. It's just a phase. I'll get over it.

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November and December is so not my month. Within these 2 months I swear more misfortune happened to me than the whole year combined. *ml to the max. It all started off with me falling - physically and emotionally. Then I sort of lost my gold bracelet - that thank God, I managed to find it back with Tze Hao's help (I don't know how to express the gratitude I have towards you). Then it was the rental car incident. Followed by my red ribbon which I sort of love and splurged on. And now, it's my phone. But to be honest, I'm not really concern about my phone but what's inside of it. Sigh. I knew I should have uploaded all the pictures I took when I had the chance. Why wait for the WiFi! Ugh. So pissed !@#$ Anyway, all these add together with all my friends going back to where they came from, one by one - did I mention how much I hate goodbyes? :'(

This is depressing. I feel like I'm being put into some sort of test. Is this my season of breaking? Is it going to end soon cause I don't think I can take it any longer. I feel so messed up, physically and emotionally.